Well, it's been more than a while since my last post. Our world has changed quite a bit since Halloween night. Just 2 days later, my nephew Justin was killed. He was just 25 years old and had such a great spirit. He left behind a wife and beautiful 2-year old daughter, parents, siblings, gransparents, aunts, uncles, cousins and friends who all have been changed forever since that night. One of the things I will miss most is the chance for Jack to know him. I had hoped Justin and I could share this wonderful experience of parenthood and that Jack would get to know him well, but that is not to be. We miss Justin very much and pray that the person responsible is brought to justice soon.
Since Justin's death it has been difficult for me to come back to the blog. I'm not sure entirely why, but think it must be trying to keep things from moving on too normally. But of course, Jack has not really been affected by the loss as only an innocent child can be shielded from such things - thank God for that. So, he has continued to grow and change everyday and I have decided that the best way I can honor the memory of Justin is to relish each moment I get with my little boy and remember to appreciate it. Part of that is remembering, so I will begin again getting back to relaying our daily memories here.
I'll begin a new post to catch us up from Halloween.
Since Justin's death it has been difficult for me to come back to the blog. I'm not sure entirely why, but think it must be trying to keep things from moving on too normally. But of course, Jack has not really been affected by the loss as only an innocent child can be shielded from such things - thank God for that. So, he has continued to grow and change everyday and I have decided that the best way I can honor the memory of Justin is to relish each moment I get with my little boy and remember to appreciate it. Part of that is remembering, so I will begin again getting back to relaying our daily memories here.
I'll begin a new post to catch us up from Halloween.
2 comments:
Justin loved you and Scott for so long -- and he was so excited about you having a baby boy! Maybe a bit jealous too. Too many girls around here.
Thanks for always being so good to him, both of you. And for mentioning him here. I am sorry his death kept you from blogging - glad you are back . It is very hard to go on like normal for me, I understand that. It HAS to happen, feels good and then wrong to do it. I don't even know what to do most times. One day at a time, that is all I can do. Life is not the same - something huge is missing.
Micki - Tiffany had told me that Justin had wanted a boy and wanted to name him Jack after Dad so he was a bit jealous when we "took" his name. I know Mom was happy when we chose Jack (she didn't find out until the moment he was born in the delivery room), but I know if Justin had named a little boy Jack she would have loved it, maybe even more and Dad would have too - he was their little buddy. I think of Justin so many times each day and still try to reconcile in my mind the reality of it all. I just wish it was something I could make better.
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