What a Difference A Year (or Three) Makes!

Today I stumbled across this blog that I started almost 4 years ago now with the best of intentions. Like many things in my life, those intentions did not yield sustained results so here we are - Jack is almost FIVE and I still don't have enough time in my day for everything I'd like to accomplish - including this blog.

But, reading back through all the memories takes me right back to those moments and makes me wish that I had kept it up because oh how many wonderful memories our family has made since 2008. Jack continues to be a source of great entertainment for us and I continue to figure it out as I go.

I remember being super confident as a new mother. What was everyone so anxious about - this little bundle of joy was challenging for sure on my time and changed my world in so many ways, but I had it all under control. Oh how silly and arrogant I was.

From that time (which seems so simple now) we have done just fine together, but my confidence has been shaken more than a few times as we entered the world of having a child with his own ideas, free will and opinions. I know it only gets more difficult but with every challenge, I am reminded what a task I have chosen - building a human being from the ground up. Everyday I am humbled to understand a little more that it is less about me building anything and more about me setting a path before him so he can build himself.

Don't get me wrong - Jack is a good kid. He's smart and funny and full of love so the challenges haven't been earth shattering. We haven't dealt with overwhelming health issues or extreme behavioral problems (thank God) - but just the every day stuff of trying to introduce your child to the world while protecting him from it can be more than a Mom can take sometimes.

So, with a renewed spirit I put it out there that I want to try and get back into the swing of keeping this journal up. I'll try and capture some of the highlights of the "missing years" before moving on, but I think the important thing is that we are still here and in it together and hopefully my next post will be somewhere before HS graduation!